Gone for 75 days...

30/10/2013, wed

Jie had gone for 75 days.. I miss her badly.. Yesterday I had this dream.. I dreamt that I was warded in hospital and diagnose an unknown illness.. Mummy is with me crying along, bro is not there, xiao gu family is there, Edan is there playing with me and the most important thing is Jie is there taking care of me.. Its too real that I had the texture of everything.. Jie helping me to adjust my bed and taking toothbrush for me to brush my teeth for sleep.. When I was in the toilet after brushing my teeth I suddenly vomit blood out in the basin... Lucky no one saw it.. This is what I wanted.. I rather everything happens to me not Jie... 

Jie, I miss you badly...
This year is the only year my tears drop the most...
Almost every night my tears washes my face...

"Jie, how are you? Are you happy at there? When can I join you?"  

my tots..

30/05/2013

Jie had warded for nearly 2 weeks. nearly breakdown infront of her. saw her pain really makes my heart bleed. 以前别人发生事情我都会很轻易的说别担心要坚强但发生在自己的身上别人说别担心要坚强,要我这么做真的很难. Still got 1 more week to our trip to bangkok. will it be as usual or something change? hope everything will turn to be normal. since i know jie's doc told her she got 2 to 5 yrs to live this news, i really want all of us to have more time with her. 

God, please take this bad dreams away from my family.
I really willing to replace with my sis to have the illness.


her illness noted on end of july.
till now nearly going to be 1 yr.