120829

120829

Recently something bad happen to my family. Still remember on 10/08 I just celebrated my birthday with yong, ah mei and velin. Tot this yr having a special celebration and end up really they give me a very special at a atas restaurant having dinner and still received a very nice birthday present bag. But this only last 1 day of happiness. The following day i received a bad news from my sister-in-law, my sis had diagnose with breast cancer. I almost faint, how should tell my mummy? when i told mum, she tot i joke with her but after she realize i was telling the truth she break down. i was totally lost. When i reach office i search for all the news about this breast cancer. there are lots of different types and stages. I ask my sister-in-law what my sis had and he told me is stage 4 and that time i really totally break down and lost. what should i do and how i tell my parents with this news. yong told me that i must be strong and take care of my sis but how i can be strong? i did blame the god, i pray hard for my family members and end up this happen on me. but still i never give up. i still pray hard the ask god for replacing the illness to me instead. i tot i will be strong enough to face my sis but every time i saw her in pain i feel like crying and hug her. i know i shouldn't cry in front of her so i endure and keep telling myself i must be very strong at all times but just ytd i visit her in hospital she suddenly in pain and having fever my hearts break and feel like crying again but i cant. i keep asking why god treat my family members so unfair, why treat my sis in this way? she had a family with 2 small kids and I'm all alone why just cant this thing happen in me?

Please hope she really recover soon.

I'm willing to replace her with the illness my sis had.

How long should i act to be strong in front of them?